April 2nd
Ever have one of those days? Starts out well, then, pain forms in the back of my head near my neck... hours later, I'm in bed, not exactly horizontal due to dizziness.
It's been almost 7 years of sobriety! Each day, I'm grateful, for this. (However, days like today, when it feels like a bad hangover, I'm especially grateful.)
For the last 2 hours, I've prayed for healing, I fell asleep and woke with enough energy to shower. Then, back to bed.
However, the song I woke to playing repeat in my mind helped, Because of Who You Are, but it wasn't the full song, just 4 words. Ever know a song from memory, but only remember a few for some reason:
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider
I don't believe in coincidences. All I sang was those 4 words. Later, I remembered the rest, it's a beautiful song! However, for a moment, the reminder was needed,
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider. Jehovah Nissi, Lord, you reign in victory. Jehovah Shalom, my Prince of Peace. And I'll worship you because of who you are.
Because of who you are, I give you glory. Because of who you are I give you praise. Because of who you are, I will life my voice and say, Lord I worship you because of who you are. Lord I worship you because of who you are.
Good night,
Stay blessed 💕
March 21st
It's amazing how tiredness comes easily while vertigo is visiting. 😄 I could've also forgot to take meds last night 🤷🏽♀️.
For goodness sakes, I took a nap and I'm tired still! Oh well, early night for me sounds good!
How was your Friday?
March 19th
Ever have 2 days in 1? I got up this morning knowing it would be colder the later it got. I spent time watching the front come in. Although there was a slight chill in the air, I was comfortable outside. As I sat, the wind picked up. The front had arrived, bringing with it change in the barometric pressure.
I decided to lay down, wifey was off from her 2nd job, and enjoying a well-deserved morning to sleep in. My head started to bother and I fell asleep hoping to wake up without a headache. Unfortunately, my nap was more like Rip Van Winkle's, I woke up and didn't realize what time it was. Once awoke, I took my time regaining balance - I'd rather go to sleep already dizzy than to wake up dizzy - it was dark, cloudy, windy as sleet hits the windows. I crawled next to my wifey on the couch and prayed for my equilibrium to return.
March 15th
In times when vertigo (or a migraine) hits, I've learned to give myself grace. Before, it was go, go, go. I'd fall into bed exhausted and bad shape.
God has shown me grace and asks me to do that for myself! I cannot succeed if I'm not at my best. However, I must stay steadfast in Him and in my journey. Allowing for grace, not excuses.
Trying to describe it to someone, I said it felt like a glitch. It's not painful, but sensory awareness is intense. I wonder if my eyes crosses during this time 🤔 sure feels like it.